Change

Her hands may be small
Her feet may be tiny
But her Will stands tall
In the face of scrutiny

The winds may be strong
The weather may be cold
But her mind plays a song
To overcome and be bold

Cherish the struggle
For first you feel deranged
But you strive to untangle
To bring a world of change

Seasons in the Cold

The weather have been freakish of late. Well not entirely freakish but I guess it marks the changing of a season. Winter. Sub-10s temperature. Numb fingers. Thick Jackets.

Mom is dropping by Melbourne to visit us two weeks from now. So mom, bring thick clothings because I think its gonna be colder than your last visit. Plus, its been raining for abit recently, adds to the agony. Hehe.

Also, some china telemarketer have been ringing me up lately, till the point of total annoyance. Yes, its my fault for picking up and deciding to listen for a little, not wanting to be rude. But still, YOU DONT NEED TO RING ME FOUR TIMES IN THE MORNING!!! So if I happened to cancel some "WITHHELD" calls, sorry for that yea.

My wishes for May. Still the same, aligned towards the same goal. GET A JOB!





p/s: Wow, as I typed this post, some company rang me up again. A Malaysian spoke to me asking about my skills and experience, said he would forward my resume to the client and he will choose between 6 candidates. Pick me pick me!!!

Recently...

1) Celebrated Stevie Birthday at Hog's Breath
2) Went on a 3 days 2 nights trip at Safety Beach, Dromana (Yes its a big group mom, not just 2-3 of us)
3) Still applying more jobs, stepped up a notch by calling instead of just mailing
4) Took over ownership of OWN 569, and Cal Jan's car looks good
5) Gonna sit for a drive test on 5th of May, coincidentally back at Dromana (Had the time to scour the place during the trip)
6) Only going out on weekends with her due to studies and tests and assignments and exams, which also gave me alot of time for jobs applications
7) Met up with Bro alot more due to geographical proximity
8) Mom and Jan always ask questions with a cheeky look
9) Cooking abit more at home, save money
10) Had a truckload of bacons and prawns due to our 'geniusity' for not bringing to trip
11) Roy made good lamb ribs, William made good chicken wings, Marcus made good charsiew, and I make good indomee.
12) I need more exercise
13) Ran out of blog-juice

Random Thoughts

Do we play with fire or
Do we savour the warmth of the cave
Do we pursue our burning desire or
Do we leave it all up to fate

To take one step at a time or
To stare in the wildiness of the blind
To act on the thoughts of mind or
To follow the heart of the divine

Is luck an important factor or
The ability to manufacture our own
Why be the prey amongst predators
When we can be kings of the throne

A Step Forward

So, after 300+ applications on my two-month jobhunt, I finally got a call for an interview. Put it this way, it is actually my first official interview, since the APESMA one doesn't count because I already got the job before hand, thanks to Jan.

Waking up 830am in the morning hasn't actually been my daily ritual, but with some coffee, and anticipation of the interview, I finally got going. So with new office shoes I've been dreading to wear, I head out to catch the bus to Oakleigh, then transit the Box Hill. Left the house at 930am, and I was so nearly late for the interview, reached there 11am sharp with a constant look on the time during the whole travelling period.

So anyway, this company that I'm headed for was an agent for a client, where if successful, I'll be working for. I thought the interview went alright, it was a relax environment, where he (Peter) explained to me the job at hand, the expected requirements, the client's company background, the salary package (35k to 40k for starters) and also cracking a joke or two. There was a short form for me to fill in too, namely questions like "what are my stengths", "whats my short term and long term plan", all these already the expected questions to be asked, and questions which I am prepared for. I was made to break sweat though as there were some practical accountancy questions to complete too. But digging back the dusted knowledge in the far corner of my mind, it all went well.

So I made the long journey back home. And about 5pm, Peter gave me a call. He said he have arranged for me to meet the client for a second interview tomorrow at Mount Waverley, my first reaction was "Whoa, so fast?". But of course I went on the agree and I'll be heading to the company tomorrow, this time, its only 2km from where I live. And straight after the interview, I have to go for my Hazard Perception Test at Oakleigh for my Victorian License. Sounds like a busy day, but it is damn well better than being idle.

Oh here are the websites for the agent and client, maybe you're interested in looking at it, lol.

www.zhu.com.au (agent)
http://changhong.com.au/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=52&Itemid=52 (client)

China electronics store? :O

Update of the Updated

Sometimes, the working life intimidates me. An evil glare staring at me, and will probably stare still for the rest of my life, till retirement of course. Today, I went to a career fair. 86 of the largest, most reputable companies in Australia are there, each having a corner of their own. But more compelling was the amount of people there, and in fact, the amount of foreign students browsing around with the 'looks' of a distinction student. I do not know if I can be compared with them. I do not know if I'm good enough to secure a job in one of those 86 household names. But what I know is I am damn well gonna give it a shot, to embrace the struggle, to keep my head above water in the competition I am going to face, and to be the person I always wanted to be.

I am trying, but I wondered if I have tried my best. My thoughts tell me that I still have an extra mile to go, an extra gear to shift in. Maybe I'm not feeling as desperate as I am portraying, but the more the time passes, the more I can smell that stench. The stench that may allow me to find that extra bit.

Besides the whole miserable job hunt, life has been alright. Met new people, went new places, drank more coffee :P, and trying hard to break the routine life. Oh and I met someone really interesting, feels like years when its only a month. Will see how it goes.

Other than that, there isn't any much to update about. I'm also partially bored which is why I decide to post something :O

Till the next post, WILL THE ECONOMY TURN FOR THE BETTER ALREADY PLEASE!?!? Haha.

UPDATE !!

Have you come across a time where you're staring straight at the screen of your comp, with whatever browser opened, but only a blank whitish glare staring back at you? Yeah, I was having that just right now. Job sites checked, Facebook checked, Soccernet checked, Mininova checked, my pals' blogs checked. But hey what about mine? So i decided to type chokec.blogspot.com. Hmm, this place seems dusty, I cancelled all my earlier post because I thought it wasn't necessary anymore. And all that is left was acres of empty room. Thus, I decide maybe I'll write something.

You know, maybe what Roy said is true, "It seems when you're happy, you dont blog", quoted the man. And I do to some extend agree on that, because like him, we haven't been updating our blogs as often as we'd like. And when i looked back at my earlier posts, it only magnified his words as most of my posts are more like rants and complaints, which is the very reason why I decided to take everything off. Start over. Fresh.

Everyone have their bad times, and their good times. And it feels like when things are bad, the only way left is up. I really enjoyed myself since my return to Australia, the trip back home somewhat reinvigorates me, rejuvenates me.

Well also, been sending in tons of applications for jobs. It's a tough time, but I'll give my best, and I'll take what the world gives me. Till then, at least my blog isn't so empty anymore :O